I’ve been daydreaming of Italy lately… the heat, the cobblestones, the architecture, and that incredible intense warm light that radiates through Rome just before sunset. It feels like being in a movie.
All I want is for you to be happy
And take this moment to make you my family
And finally you have found something perfect
And finally you have found…
This song = being depressed my senior year of high school, when my boyfriend was about to move across the country for college (causing our relationship to self-destruct almost immediately). We really were in love, and I don’t doubt that we would still be together if he had stayed (or if I had gone with him). It was probably the worst I’ve ever felt. I’ve been thinking about it today, since I started listening to this album and it really brought me back.
When J moved down South for school, I didn’t know if we were going to make it, since all I knew of long-distance relationships was completely awful. But we made it work. I’m proud of us, and it makes me think that we will beat the odds.
I have my first on-campus interview for a summer position tomorrow afternoon and I am kinda freaking out about it. I never used to get nervous for interviews, but the Career Services office has been sending out information about how you must sell yourself and steer the conversation and research the firm and memorize talking points and it’s got me worked up a little. I’m worried that I will forget the points I wanted to make, and get flustered, and then it will all go downhill from there. I just need to remember to relax, breathe, and be myself. I am completely qualified for the position and I just need to answer the questions honestly and let that come through. Worst case, I don’t get the job, and it really won’t be the end of the world.
Nobody looks at me like I’m crazy when they find out I’ve chosen not to have a car. (Sometimes I’m even not the only one!)
J got an internship in CA and moved there today. Am trying to get used to an empty apartment again. You don’t realize how much you like having someone around until they’re gone. I’m thinking about adopting a cat, because I like cats and also to fill the void a little. We’ll see.
Awesome winter break activities:
- Visiting old roommates in favorite city
- Helping good friend make sash for her wedding
- Hanging out with mom
- Getting some new clothes
- Starting applications for summer clerkships (Not as hard as I thought it would be, very helpful career services office.)
- First couple of Christmas celebrations
- First part of New Years’ Eve
Meh winter break activities:
- Last couple of Christmas celebrations (Totally Christmas-ed out by then. Oh God so many family members. Hard to remember all of J’s relatives, how they are related, their names, etc. Awkward.)
- Last part of New Year’s Eve (Puked in friend’s trash can… but she understood. Old roommates are the best.)
- Hanging out with very conservative, OCD, unemployed dad (He’s ok for a while but not all day every day. Plus his gloating over republican victories makes me feel stabby.)
A few more days here and we will be heading back to the great white north. Still no word on J’s job prospects, but we have high hopes for an internship in California… should be hearing back in a day or two. Also getting impatient about my grades… B+ in contracts, so that’s good, but the rest have not been posted yet. Sigh.
Yay winter break!
One semester down, five to go. I can’t believe it’s over. Now for three weeks of relative freedom (plus resume-writing and applying for clerkships… the fun never ends).
If this is going to be a Christian nation that doesn’t help the poor, either we’ve got to pretend that Jesus was just as selfish as we are, or we’ve got to acknowledge that He commanded us to love the poor and serve the needy without condition, and then admit that we just don’t want to do it.
America is not a Christian nation… and those who proclaim it is are hypocrites.
One of my travel companions took this photo in the Trastevere neighborhood in Rome. I think Trastevere was my favorite part of Rome - there were definitely less tourists and the food was fantastic. One of the best experiences we had in Rome was sitting on some crowded steps after dinner and people-watching.